Fathers Day
Where I am typing this blog was already a semi-finished blog post that I was going to post on Fathers Day, but I decided to clear the slate and start fresh, with freshly healed emotions but still the raw power to explain my thoughts. Today is the one year anniversary of my biological fathers death. The emotions I have struggled with over the last year have brought me to some of the darkest corners of my emotions. I felt there was a time I might never get out, but I am here today, feeling brighter but the last few days have held darkness. How do you say goodbye to someone who you never had closure from? Feeling sadness about a year without a father who I had not spoken to in almost 9 years seems like an oxymoron. Our relationship was strained but he was 50% of the combination that makes up me, so the benefit of the doubt should be given. The sinking feeling of sadness overwhelms me when I think about my biological father. Sadness that he created a life and seemed to forget about m...